Teaching ourselves to like, even to love ourselves is the best gift we can give ourselves!

“Teaching ourselves to like, even to love ourselves is the best gift we can give ourselves!”

Tamara Kulish

This morning I read a sentence in a blog post by kegarland which touched my heart and reminded me of myself many years ago! Her post: Monday Notes: 3 Ways Unresolved Trauma Showed Up In My 25-Year Marriage, has 3 points I could relate to: #1: I married out of fear, #2: I thought being married could replace the love I should’ve had for myself, and #3: I thought being married meant melding identities.

#2, “I thought being married could replace the love I should’ve had for myself”, was the point which really got me thinking of my own journey.

I remember the extreme disappointment I felt when I realized that being married wouldn’t heal me or be a replacement for all the work I needed to do for myself.

My expectations were unrealistic

I remember feeling resentment and even anger, that with all the love I was pouring into my spouse that it wasn’t magically changing him, nor helping him not to be an addict, nor was it being reciprocated!

My expectations were completely unrealistic, and I held onto this UNSPOKEN contract with him, for years!

As I slowly started to work through some of my inner healing, I realized that the kind of abuse I had experienced as a child, had obliterated all sense of boundaries, and had created completely skewed ideas of how relationships worked!

I had adopted a kind of magical thinking, whereby through the power and the intensity of my LOVE that I could heal his addictions. I felt that if he LOVED me back the same way, that his love would heal me!

I felt extremely let down when this didn’t happen, putting blame on the love, when in reality, that isn’t how it works, in healthy relationships and unhealthy ones!

Once I started to learn about boundaries and how to set them, things started to change.

In learning the basic principles of how boundaries work, I learned where I finished as an individual, and where the other person started.

Before learning this basic lesson, I experienced a lot of feelings of feeling let down and hurt, because I had very unrealistic expectations of other people, and had no real concept of how healthy relationships worked. It all seemed so mysterious!

I was wracked with GUILT when I set boundaries!

Practicing setting boundaries is very difficult for anyone with very low self worth, for there’s intense feelings of GUILT when we say no!

I practiced setting boundaries, because I learned that was the healthy thing to do in relationships, but my inner reality was still that of much ambivalence to what I was doing, and I continued to struggle with extreme anxiety and depression for many years.

It was only when I started to teach myself to like myself that my inner world started to really change!

Teaching ourselves to like ourselves DOES take time and practice! I’ve shared a number of previous posts (below) where I speak about the process!

When we first start to try to teach ourselves something which is so foreign to us, it doesn’t feel natural or normal!

It feels terrible sometimes! I remember how revolted I felt sometimes when I said something nice to myself! I felt physically sick! I started sweating, and felt a panic attack coming on!

I remember how brutal it felt to say something nice to myself, and not grimace!

It does get better with practice!

Try saying something nice to yourself right now!

How did you feel?

Did it feel good? Were you comfortable saying it?

Or did you struggle, even grimace?

If you struggled saying something nice to yourself, may I suggest starting to set up a gentle practice to do so? Below you’ll find quite a bit of additional help, and in some of those posts are links to other posts!

Trust me, the you will thank yourself in the next few months for starting to do this!

Keep a journal to write your thoughts in, and if you get a Guided Journal or two, all the better!

You can do this! You are worth it!

Happiness starts with your thinking and what you tell yourself everyday! Part 4

Challenge: When a negative thought enters your mind, think three positive ones. Train yourself to flip the script!

Even after a setback or negative experience, we can create a “reset” button in our minds!

By changing our inner dialogue, we change EVERYTHING!

As we practice being gentle and kind with ourselves, we actually help to speed the process of helping our lives become more positive!

Do all that you can… the universe loves each of us and is working things out on our behalf!

Baby steps serve a purpose to allow us to keep moving forward!

Appreciation for life reveals the eternal presence of love.

5 Things to quit RIGHT NOW!

Right now there are…

The Universe believes in you. Trust you are being guided.

Blessings!
Thank you for sharing this post and for following me!
Tamara
https://tamarakulish.com/ Archived Posts: https://tamarakulish.com/archived-posts/

My books: Developing Happiness When You Can’t Find It and How to Heal Your Life on a Deep Heart Level are available in paperback and Kindle. Audio book available!

Guided Journals help you work on a particular issue by answering questions to help see patterns and to find solutions:

Removing Inner Blocks,    Anger Journal,    Guided Anxiety Journal    Joy & Mindfulness Journal     My Boundaries Journal   My Inner Thoughts Journal   

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7 thoughts on “Teaching ourselves to like, even to love ourselves is the best gift we can give ourselves!

  1. Ah! Yes. Maybe you don’t need to read the book lol I can tell that we have definitely traveled similar paths on our journey toward self-love. Boundaries was my biggest issue. Once I learned to set them, my life COMPLETELY changed! Of course, like you said, it’s super hard, but so necessary to begin to heal and be healthy.

    Thanks for linking to my blog! I appreciate it ❤

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    1. My deepest pleasure! I hear what you’re saying about EVERYTHING changing once boundaries are put into place! It’s absolutely huge! For me I needed to look below the surface of WHY I struggled to and why I felt so guilty about it! Once I saw that my self loathing and my negative self talk was getting in the way, I realized I needed to work on changing how I spoke to myself! Call it the work behind the work if you will! 😜😜

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    1. My pleasure! This was something which surprised me too when I was learning it! I didn’t realize before how my inability to like myself translated into allowing my boundaries to be removed! Gently putting them into place entailed learning to like myself so I could value myself enough not to be walked on!

      It was truly life changing!

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