“Is it really up to me?”
This is a question I avoided looking at for many years.

I craved for people to help me out of the situations I desperately wanted out of; I struggled and struggled to find my way out.

I felt powerless to change anything and felt all the different things I was trying weren’t working because I was somehow cursed, or that I was a terrible loser that the universe couldn’t or wouldn’t help me by giving me a life free of troubles…